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I NOW HAVE FRIDAYS OFF, AND THOUGH I WELCOME THE START OF THE WEEKEND, I ALWAYS SEEM TO ARISE TO A NIGGLING FEELING OF EMPTINESS. NOT FOR A LONG TIME HAVE I HAD A WHOLE DAY TO MYSELF, LET ALONE 3 IN A ROW. IT’S ALWAYS BEEN DEADLINES, AND FASHION SHOOTS, AND ONGOING WORK STEALING MY WEEKENDS, AND FOR WHAT FEELS LIKE YEARS I’VE BEEN WAITING TO HAVE SOME FRESH INSPIRATION. FINALLY, I DO, AND NEW YORK- WITH IT’S DIVERSE NEIGHBORHOODS, STYLISH SIDEWALKERS, AND MEDLEY OF MUSEUMS COULDN’T BE A BETTER PLACE TO SATIATE MY NEED FOR CULTURE.

HAVING TRIPPED TO THE MoMA LAST WEEK, THE NATURAL HISTORY MUSEUM A FEW DAYS BACK AND THE MET MUSEUM TWICE TODAY (YES, ONCE IN THE MORNING AND THEN ONCE IN THE EVENING) I’M BECOMING QUITE THE GALLERY ENTHUSIAST. SKIMMING PAST THE PIECES THAT I CAN’T RELATE AND IGNORING SOME OF THE MORE PRETENTIOUS ‘MODERN ART’, I’VE BEEN SPENDING HOURS ENGROSSED BY MY SURROUNDINGS. NOT THE BEST WITH GENERAL KNOWLEDGE ADMITTEDLY, I’M RELIVING MISSED GEOGRAPHY LESSONS AND HISTORY STUDIES THROUGH CHOICE, AND FINALLY BEING ABLE TO LINK THE TWO WITH SOME SORT OF CLARITY. (A BASIC SKILL I KNOW, YOU’D THINK.) I’M GATHERING MORE INSPIRATION FROM THE WIDER WORLD, AND MY STYLE AND CREATIVITY IS BEING VISIBLY INFLUENCED. I’M ON A TOTAL OCEANIA-KICK AT THE MOMENT, HELPED NONETHELESS BY THE PACIFIC ROOMS AT THE AMNH AND ARTS OF OCEANIA AT THE MET. 

HAPPIER THAN I EVER THOUGHT I COULD BE HERE IN NEW YORK, AND BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH THINKING ABOUT MY NEXT RELOCATION, ANY EMPTINESS IS SHUNNED THE MOMENT I STEP OUT OF THE DOOR; FOR WORLD, I LOVE YOU.  

 (montages I've made, do not use without credit/ linkback)

feeling on top of the world right now

probably all the coffee

happyday

MISSING OUT ON FATHER'S DAY, BOTH PHYSICALLY AND LITERALLY DUE TO A BUSY SCHEDULE AND STATESIDE LOCATION, I THOUGHT I WOULD MAKE EFFORTS TO DEDICATE A POST. SUNBATHING IN PROSPECT PARK AND ALMOST PASSING OUT FROM HEAT, WHILST SURROUNDED BY FAMILIES CELEBRATING FATHER'S DAY WITH FOOD I CAN'T AFFORD, AND DRINKS I CAN ONLY CRAVE WAS QUITE SAD. FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE ARRIVING, I FELT A TWINGE OF SADNESS, FOR IF I WAS AT HOME, IT WOULD HAVE CERTAINLY BEEN ME PICNICKING ON FINE FOODS AND CHIRPING ABOUT WITH MY CLAN. I FOUND SOME FAMILY SNAPSHOTS FROM WHAT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I COULDN'T HELP BUT SHARE. LOOKING BACK AT THE BLEACH BLONDE BOB, OVERSIZED TEE AND PENCHANT FOR BUCKLED SANDALS, I WONDER WHAT'S REALLY CHANGED. BUT AS I SIT HERE IN THE NYLON OFFICE IN THE HEART OF NEW YORK CITY, I REALISE ACTUALLY, QUITE A LOT. 

too happy

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I MOVED HERE 2 DAYS AGO AND I'M ALREADY DREADING THE THOUGHT OF LEAVING.
I THINK I'VE FOUND HOME.